What drives you? I don’t mean a particular goal you have your eye on, like losing weight or making more money. I mean the things that your mind and body respond to instantly throughout your day. The thoughts that your mind is drawn to again and again. The things that make you who you are.
I describe myself as an intelligent woman with a great capacity for pleasure. I also say that pleasure has long been my main form of spiritual practice. My writing reflects my sensuality; it always has. I have always desired a way to boldly express this gift of mine, which causes me to giggle uncontrollably through a truly good meal, or to lose myself in nature. My ability to let go into my senses so completely, my intense sensitivity to touch, smells, body language - these are things that govern my life, and when I do not honour them, they plague me like ghosts who cannot rest.
Yet this “thing” I have been gifted also has its downsides. I have struggled to express myself without attracting “the wrong kind of attention” or being subtly reminded by society of the “wages of sin.”
Since my latest bout of depression and self doubt, I have been thinking. A lot. And reading. A lot. Yesterday, in the shower, an idea leapt into me and before I knew it I was a babbling, joyful wrinkled mess.
The idea(s) continue to grow and sloppily mutate in my mind, but in the meantime I just want to encourage everyone to explore the impulses that come naturally to you. If you could build a social network or a business or work of art, based purely on that raw beauty inside you - you know the one - what would it look like?
When you think of this, does it make you happy and excited?
If so, please do it. Please start. And tell me so I can support and follow you on your journey. Because every time I see someone following their own instincts and throwing all their passion behind a project, it makes me feel good.
Thanks for reading.
Doll & Lantern
3 hours ago